Panicked

I never thought I suffered from panic attacks. Whenever I imagined panic attacks I would think about hysterical people hyperventilating into paper bags, and I certainly hadn’t done that. The week before last I had seven panic attacks. So, yes I do suffer from them. Usually I would suffer about seven in a month, so…

Resilience

Fortune & Cupcakes has been very quiet over the past few months. This hasn’t been due to lack of ideas and inspiration, but actually the opposite- I’ve been through so much it has taken me so long to process and recover from an exceptionally busy period in my life. I think it would be easier…

On Being Enough

It has been over a year and a half since I started a short course of Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. This was immeasurably useful in taking a step back to examine my thought processes and how I come to terms with things around me. It enabled me to begin to understand why things affected me in…

Recovery Part 3: Four little words

I realise I never quite rounded up my three parts on my experience with anti-depressants (Part 1, Part 2). Things changed a little, and have changed since, both of which have been an important part in my recovery too. I stopped taking my anti-depressants late in 2017. I’m still not sure if this is a…

Enjoyment (or the things I do which make me feel better)

Sometimes the idea of helping yourself feels like the most ridiculous notion in the world. When you feel like you have no worth, motivation or energy, it can be hard to fathom how to help yourself, when to find time or energy, or why you would even take the time to. However, it is the…

Recovery Part 2: Lists and Being Far Too Tired.

Last month, I wrote a piece about my daily routine before I started a recent course of citalopram. I did say I would update on my progress in a weeks time, yet a week somehow turned to four and over month later here we are. 6 weeks in. Unfortunately I haven’t been taking the medication…