28 Days of Self Care

This February I decided to set myself a challenge, to try and do a small act of self care each day: my 28 days of self care. I wanted a challenge that wouldn’t be too overwhelming, but would help me to reinforce good habits, and to notice and reap the rewards of self care.

Recovery Part 3: Four little words

I realise I never quite rounded up my three parts on my experience with anti-depressants (Part 1, Part 2). Things changed a little, and have changed since, both of which have been an important part in my recovery too. I stopped taking my anti-depressants late in 2017. I’m still not sure if this is a…

Enjoyment (or the things I do which make me feel better)

Sometimes the idea of helping yourself feels like the most ridiculous notion in the world. When you feel like you have no worth, motivation or energy, it can be hard to fathom how to help yourself, when to find time or energy, or why you would even take the time to. However, it is the…

Relapse

Relapse can happen at any time. It can be triggered by something, anything or nothing at all. In this case, it was the nothing that pushed me down the hill. It was the nothing that made me tired, and wake up feeling as if a large boulder is sat on my chest, making me unable…

Recovery Part 2: Lists and Being Far Too Tired.

Last month, I wrote a piece about my daily routine before I started a recent course of citalopram. I did say I would update on my progress in a weeks time, yet a week somehow turned to four and over month later here we are. 6 weeks in. Unfortunately I haven’t been taking the medication…

Recovery Part 1: A day in the life of an anxious depressive. 

Content Warning: depression, anti-depressants, suicidal thoughts, self harm. I recently started a course of citalopram, with diazepam when needed. It’s the first time I’ve been on antidepressants since I was younger, and had a very difficult time on fluoxetine. They make me anxious. However, after three weeks of being on them they are working really…