Recovery Part 1: A day in the life of an anxious depressive. 

Content Warning: depression, anti-depressants, suicidal thoughts, self harm. I recently started a course of citalopram, with diazepam when needed. It’s the first time I’ve been on antidepressants since I was younger, and had a very difficult time on fluoxetine. They make me anxious. However, after three weeks of being on them they are working really…

#WorldSuicidePreventionDay

Today is #WorldSuicidePreventionDay. I feel compelled to share.   My depression worsened this year, and I didn’t tell anyone. During the past two months I’ve had a fair few blips, resulting in a breakdown in relationship and loss of someone very important. I spoke out, I told my closest friends and my family and now…

A little glimpse of positivity (yes, you read that right!)

My Facebook has a weird feature where it tells me my ‘memories’. The only one that’s vaguely interested me is a post I made at University about how much I shouldn’t drink as much vodka and listen to as much Paul Simon (status: don’t drink vodka, but listen to much more Paul Simon).However yesterday a…

New Year’s Eve is the absolute worst (and other struggles)

I’ve always hated New Years Eve (or Old Year’s Night as we’ve always called it). I’ve never dealt well with change, I hate looking backwards and I’m naturally a pessimist A few months ago I wrote a blog post about my experience with a newly diagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder, and suggestions of suffering with depression…

Lists, processing, mental health and constructing new chapters.

So, I like writing lists. My head gets cloudy and foggy sometimes, and I find lists are the best way of organising my thoughts. I write lists at work, at home and even wake up to write lists when too many thoughts are going through my head and stopping me from getting a good nights…